Saturday, December 28, 2013
If you have been keeping up with me on facebook or instagram, then you know my kids have been sick for about a week. It all started last Friday night when Grace woke up and started throwing up for about 6 hours. I counted. 17 times. She woke up and everything went back to normal, I thought okay well that was fun. Now its over...good thing we aren't sick for Christmas!
We went a whole day and then Sunday morning my husband woke up with it, and so did Lucy. Scott took about a half day to be done and Lucy, she just threw up a few times and went back to normal. I thought okay, this is a virus so I walked around with bleach and wipes and cleaned laundry every hour on the hour. my hands got raw from all the washing. But we got through it and on we went.
the next day nothing happened, but then in the middle of the night Grace would wake up and vomit. And so would Lucy. They would play all day and eat normal and act normal and than without missing a beat, around 1 or 2 am, someone would wake up and start throwing up every 15 or 20 minutes or so for hours. I was so baffled and this went on and on. It would skip a day and then I would think it was over but then the next night, vomit.
So long story short we took them to the doctor and ended up Lucy has developed a double ear infection but even their doctor had no idea about the stomach issues. They are well hydrated, no pain, soft tummies, look good, feel good...until the middle of the night comes. We left there just the way we came, baffled, with antibiotics.
So the whole car ride home I kept hearing a voice in my heart tell me that it was evil causing it. That it was an attack. I could not shake that feeling or voice and when I got home I just knew I needed to do something. I felt like a protective mama lion walking around in circles. As we were in the shower getting ready for bed, the holy spirit kept telling me I needed to pray for angels to come and protect them. So I started to pray for angels to come and fill the room. I prayed it all in my head . I didn't speak out loud.
So as we were getting out, Lucy started playing with one of Graces belts. She was swinging it in the air like a lasso. I asked her what she was doing, Grace was getting pissed she was swinging it around. Lucy said, "I'm trying to get the girl." I said what girl????
She said, "the aaaaaangel. there is a girl up there mama."
So now I am 100% confirmed that I need to pray for them again. I needed to with authority. Not as a victim but with the kind of authority that Jesus gives us.
So I remembered a conversation I had with our pastors wife about Christianity and prayer and anointing oil... God has been stirring me up lately into how to listen to the holy spirit and how to get out of my comfort zone so that I can experience all God has for me. I remember talking to her about using anointing oil and how to do it and what I should say and she just stopped me and said, "its really less complicated than you think, just have a simple conversation with God."
So she told me simple things to do and say and I remembered. I had done it one time before but this time God was asking me to do it.
So I got out some olive oil and put it into a glass container. I went upstairs and put on some worship music and the girls held hands. I first thanked God that we are even able to talk to him and come to him with our stuff. I asked him to bless the oil, to make it pure and holy for his use, in the name of Jesus. I put the oil on their heads and their tummies and asked for a touch of healing from Jesus and I said out loud that no evil could enter their bodies, in the name of Jesus. that anything evil coming against us in our bodies or in our home would leave right now, in the name of Jesus. I prayed for about a few minutes more and then I opened my eyes and Grace was smiling big and asked me to hold her. She felt so much peace. I forgot to pray for the angels so I asked God to fill our house with so many angels that we could even see. And I thanked God, for all his was already doing for us.
There was no more vomit.
Here's the deal, I just think that God is waiting for us. Waiting for us to use all the power that is ours because of what Jesus did. We have so much authority to release healing and restoration and love into this world but sometimes we are so afraid of what people might think. Afraid of what people might say if we went up to them and spoke what God was really saying. I cant even count how many times the holy spirit has asked me to pray for someone I don't even know in public and I say no.
Lately I have been saying yes. And I feel the presence of the Lord in my home and in my heart stronger than ever. Like I'm in an army, fighting a battle. That's what this is, here on earth. A battlefield.
I say, lets use our power because we already know we win.
Wednesday, December 18, 2013
Distraction is the divided attention of an individual or group from the chosen object of attention onto the source of distraction. Distraction is caused by: the lack of ability to pay attention; lack of interest in the object of attention; or the great intensity, novelty or attractiveness of something other than the object of attention. Distractions come from both external sources, and internal sources
My husband and I got into a fight last night about laundry.
Because of that, I wanted to share a little bit about what God is sharing with me about distractions. It all just kept pouring in on Sunday into my heart. The holy spirit said to me, its all a distraction.
Christians vs. gay people
its all a distraction to separate me from God, to separate you from God and separate the body of Christ. Believers from believers. To create segregated groups within a big group. Because we simply can not be under one accord if we are separated.
Its all a distraction.
So while my husband and I are fighting about laundry piling up, Satan is slithering around in my household laughing at how we have now become a divided family. We are angry and overwhelmed and distracted.
An unexpected bill comes up, your tire blows out and all of a sudden your ugly crying into the mirror wondering how are we even going to afford groceries this month. ugh. its all a distraction. If God wants us to believe through trials in his goodness and faithfulness you better believe that Satan will do whatever he can to get your mind off track. get your mind off God.
If you are on a diet and you slip up, Satan will tell you how much of a failure you are and you will eat your feelings all day long. Until next Jan 1st.
If your paying off your debt and sacrificing and working hard and then your air conditioner blows up...Satan will tell you there is no use. God isn't there, otherwise he wouldn't have let this happen. And then you will go to target and buy a new wardrobe.
Its all a distraction.
For me, this season, I am really starting to see how my life is full of distractions and I am now understanding how God wants me to handle things. With patience, faith and perseverance. Not freaking out at bumps in the road. Not filling my life with even one thing that he doesn't want me to do, even if it looks good. For instance, I had to bow out of my responsibilities at Graces school because I simply was too busy. I didn't even feel bad. It looked good, I would be a good mom if I did it...I would look good to other moms...but it was not something that God put on my plate this year.
I gave up the good, for the really good. I did it so that I would be a better mom to my own babies and a better wife and a better business lady. Not so cranky.
I would challenge anyone who is feeling cranky or weary or overworked...to simply ask God what he wants. What are the things that bring me closer to him and into my calling?
What I am called to do looks so different from what your called to do. If you can read that and let it sink into your heart, like really settle into your soul...it will set you free. I need to remind myself that daily.
I went to bed exhausted last night...
When I woke up this morning I sent my husband a message...
he said "me too."
I got too busy and stressed and lashed out.
he said "I got lazy and defensive"
Well then, there ya go, all better.
and just in case your sitting there wondering about how I feel about gay people, this is my heart.
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
(I am not paid by any of these brands to represent them in any way, this is simply because I know people need guidance, these are just the supplies I like to use)
When I was first starting out I found it very difficult to figure out exactly how to do this. I had absolutely NO experience painting so I had no idea what to buy. I found myself reaching out to other artist's by email and some of them answered me. I would ask silly questions but things I just needed to know such as what kind of paint do you use or how to you box and ship a painting? So because I now get these kinds of emails all the time I am going to do a quick resource guide with links to the actual products I use when I paint.
I hope it helps!
When I first started, I bought the most expensive paints because I thought that's what I needed to do. But after much trial and error and not enough funds issue...I found that I could use several types of paint and they all achieved the same thing. If I am painting a large painting or even a small one, the under coats are mostly craft paint (which is acrylic paint) or tubes of paint. My favorite brand of small craft paint is ceramcoat which I buy only from Hobby Lobby. They have an amazing selection of colors and I just love the way the paint moves and the consistency. I get it all when they do their 30% off on paint.
*** I only use acrylic paint. And I only use materials that are archival and acid free etc because for fine art, it has to last a million years ;) I always seal my paintings with a high gloss or satin varnish.
I buy tubes of paint from Michael's. I like the artist loft and artist brand tubes. I use Golden Fluid Acrylics from Dick Blick online. So basically I use all kinds of paint at different levels based on what I am trying to achieve. The more expensive the paint group, the more highly concentrated pigment it has which is why I use cheaper paint for undercoats. You wont ever see! I use the more expensive, higher pigmented paint for details or just when I need it.
I started out using canvas that was cheap and accessible and that I could paint on, practice techniques on and mess up on and not feel bad. But things have changed....
I ONLY buy my canvas from Dick Blick art supply online.
This is the kind of canvas I use.
Now this is tricky because I have tried several different things and this is all trial and error but for my wood and smaller pieces I use these.
I have found a great local box company where I buy boxes for my large pieces. They are located in San Antonio ! And if they don't have the size I need, I hire my local UPS to make one for me out of sheets.
There is no secret here. I don't even have a preference. I have a very heavy hand a find that I go through brushes quite often... I am more of a large scale painter, not into detail much so mostly I use impasto tools and my hands to paint instead of brushes. I do use sponges a lot though and go through them weekly. But when I do need a brush, believe it or not Martha Stewart Brand brushes are my favorites.
I use a lot of texture gels and mediums to achieve different things.
this one is my favorite.
NOW GO PAINT!